In Honor of Victoria

Guest Contributor, Smirna Avendano

My Sweet Mamushka,

As I sit at the dinner table and look at the empty chair in front of me, I still can’t believe it’s been ten years without you. I sit here waiting for you to walk in and say, “Momma, I’m home. Dinner smells delicious!” I wait to feel your embrace and the kiss on my forehead. I wait for you to take your seat at the table across from me. I wait to hear your voice, full of excitement, telling me all about your day. When I close my eyes, I can see you sitting there. I can hear your laughter, beautiful, giggly, and full of joy. As always, I am captivated by the stories you tell.

Continually, my heart waits for you to come home, but my spirit knows that you are already home, beyond the sunset. I probably didn’t do you justice when I tried to explain Heaven to you as a little girl, when you asked, “What is Heaven like?” You wanted to know if there would be friendly animals to play with. I’m certain there are, and you’re probably playing with them right now.

Victoria and Mom

I can imagine you walking through vibrant, lush gardens with your grandparents, listening as Grandpa tells you all about the different flowers there. I can see you singing among the angels in the glorious choir, maybe even singing a solo every now and then. I can picture your excitement as you sit at the table with Jesus, telling Him all about your day. Oh my, knowing what I know about Heaven and believing that you’re truly home brings peace to my heart. I know you’re somewhere indescribable, a place where love and joy never end.

If I could, I would pray for you to come back to us, but why on earth would I do that? My heart does miss you, and it always will.

My Dear Mamushka, you touched so many lives, and you brought a light into our home that can never be extinguished. You were such a beautiful spirit, filled with so much kindness. You had an inquisitive mind that always wanted to explore new places. You were true to yourself and held strong to your beliefs. You were loyal to those you loved and cared for.

Each time we see a red cardinal, a butterfly, or a dragonfly, we know that you’ve sent them to bring a smile and joy to our hearts. Your love, kindness, laughter, and countless memories will continue to fill our lives each and every day until we are together again in Heaven. My heart forever longs for your presence, but my spirit knows that the Son is shining where you are. Please know that it is well with my soul, because I know Jesus holds you in His loving arms.

Sending love, hugs, and kisses to you in Heaven from all of us.

With all my love, 

Mom 

9/21/2025